my story

I truely believe we all have a story.

At 19 I married my childhood sweet heart. A kind gentle soul who gave me unconditonal love as I never felt I had before.

At 19 I was 5 foot 11 and weighed 119 on our wedding day. All my teen years was a struggled with some weight.... I look back and see my bing eating as a teen and then staravation to loose weight.

My 1st pregnancy was twins which I lost at 12 weeks. Lost... how do you loose babies...1 year later we had our oldest and   I gained 60 pounds. Which I dropped some of it but 9 months later I was pregnat again and gained a another 60. That was 27 years ago I have never seen 200 pounds since then.

My husband was not happy with me, I was not happy with me to help I ate more.

Ten years went by and the pounds went up  strugglign with  infertility and 300 pounds.
it was 10 years we tried for our little girl...and then
then suddenly kelsie came, 2 years later savannah and 2 years later sally anne and then 16 months later Isaac. the scale tipped 370.

I had my dream, a large family, stay at home mom and then my bubble was busted!
MY love changed to a mean , selfish person...
I went to nursing school to leave him...to support myself and kids.
in the admist  of that year we found out he had a gentic disease called huntingtons disease. Worse yet each of my babies had a 50% chance of having the disease.(hdsa.org)

The scale hand moved up and down over the years,,,as my life rode an rollercoaster.
 When the youngest was 2 years old vince was placed in a nursing home for his safety and our safety. Huntingtons affects your mind, movements, and muscles, Over time you have large limb jerking, mood swings like living with a schizophrenic, and evidently he was unable to swallow , walk, wore diapers and speah slurred ot the point of not understanding him.

Vince passed away in 2009. Those years were utter hell as I raised the kids alone, tried to provide and still try to be care giver to him. My friend was food. I was so lonley, tired , frustrated, fighting for his care, and working ....so I ate. When I was happy I ate. When I was sick I desevered to eat...I am sure you are getting ther picture.

So hear I am on this journey to find me, to eat healthy, control my eating...and begin exercise.

Life goes on. I have a wonderful caring, loving, boy friend. He loves me as I am...
my babies are now 29,27,19,17,15,and13,,,kids do grow up I am finding out.
I am back in school because it is alife long goal put off by life and now it is my time.


my goals are simple eat healthy and  use roca to control portions, as I learn on this journey . As I learn to eat healthy the weight will come off.

the weight will come off
the weight will come off
the weight will come off...
and IT IS!
down 6 pounds in a week!